a bit of a sit.
Thursday, October 30th, 2008I stopped by for the weekly talk/sit at Common Ground for the first time in about a year. It was well worth it. A good meditation session followed by a great lecture. There were about 80 people crammed into that little space.
Looking back at why I haven’t meditated in so long, I really had to blow up my old practice because of two influences. One was an embryonic book that warned people not to get so interested in meditating and staying calm and detatched that they missed the whole heart-pounding show. At almost the same time, the talk at the Common Ground warned that meditation should be intense, that your mind should be active and not working to shut itself down during meditation.
Not really consciously, I abandoned meditation practice because these two directives were almost too big for me to accommodate. The floaty hallucinatory calm was good for what it was, an escape, a calming influence, insight into some inner workings of an ordinary human male, but here were these twin calls for something a little more and they made me roll off the ball backwards.
So I finally went back last night, with these ideas steeping for a year while I lived my life whole-assedly. Someone in the audience asked the perfect question: ” I’m like, distracted by my wish not to be distracted or something.” Well, maybe the question wasn’t perfect. The English language really gets horrifically abused at that place when people try to explain their mental states before a large group of strangers. But the answer was perfect! To summarize the answer, there are two extremes in the type of meditation we are practicing. One extreme is intense adherence. Strangle the distraction as soon as you become aware of it and go back to the breath. Discipline. Concentration. The other extreme is to go and live in the distraction for a while until it goes away or you stop realizing it is a distraction and have to pull out by returning to the breath. It is really an art form to balance between the two extremes and know when to exercise discipline and when to look more closely at the distractions. Very helpful.
Their website, by the way, has hundreds of recorded dharma talks. Among those are three recorded “guided sits” that are mostly silence with the instructor giving direction every so often. I’m not sure how I like recorded guided sits. The disembodied voice after 15 solid minutes of quiet sometimes makes me jump out of my skin.
This is an introductory one with a question and answer period at the end:
http://commonground.dreamhosters.com/aud/IN_12-03-06_Intro_Wkshp_2__Guided_Practice_and_Q_and_A.mp3
This is from a retreat:
http://commonground.dreamhosters.com/aud/RD_04-12-08_Santikaro_Guided_Sit.mp3
This is from a guest speaker.
http://commonground.dreamhosters.com/aud/GD_07-12-07_Guided_Meditation_Ajahn_Chandako.mp3